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2.9.11
This is so LIFE
my anger my love my hatred my attitude my hairstyle
my way of seeing things my wholelife....
It seems all about ME are changing during the past three months train & study process and progress @ UPNM. To be honest, it is indeed a pain in the ass to leave a harmony religiousness places like Al-Amin and join a the army. My life turned 180 (should not be a 360-degree turn because it gets you right back where you started, it is a circle), and sometimes I FREAK OUT!
I hope my ADDEEN aint changing much in total. Living outside the comfortable 'kepompong' of AlAmin really teach me what is discipline is all about. Even it is hard to foresee what may come up in life, I try to keep still and hold to what I belief. Though I cant aim for 100% perfection, I will always pray to God to give me strength and patient.
ANGER
I am not the hot-tempered nature around people because I am more like 'makan dalam' type. I keep things formy ownself. Living a hostel life for the firstime, I try my best to tolerate with others. It takes quite sometimes to understand people's behaviour and my way to show that I am annoyed is I do things. When I am angry, I mopped the floor, rearrenge the books, shoes and clean the toilet(uuu,nobody is doing this except me, even when I am not furious). Well, it is a good training for the future =P
LOVE
I do not stick around people much. Not because I hate them. It is because I am preventing myself to love people as there is nobody around you is going to love yourself except you.This is so not like AlAmin.
HATRED
Throw away your hatred towards anybody here or not, you might just caught yourself a pandemic disease. Here, even if you are not wrong, you might as well get punished like the wrongdoers. There was once a case when a handset was stolen. Nobody is plead to be guilty. So we have to stay like 3 hours from 1000 til 1330 under the blazing sun. And it was Ramadhan. Uuuuu. And after that we have once every three hours including 'pepagi buta'!
ATTITUDE
My attitude is now 55% the same as the army officer attitude. I walk like a soldier, eat like one, dress up like one, act like one. Sometimes I talk harsh (it may sounds normal to you guys but for me who has been living quite awhile @AlAmin, it is harsh). Oh, but one thing. I do not smoke.
HAIRSTYLE
I am BOLD. You ROTFL =D
*if it comes to BB, I am only curve
WAY OF SEEING THINGS
I view the world contraryly now. Well, it aint just because I have a soldier IC. I am an adult now XP
LIFE
Well, now I undergo mutation. I am at odds, opposing my past self. Once in awhile, I think, is this the best choice for me? Am I doing the best thing for my future? There is no right answer for you can not predict the future ... Adios amigos. Assalamualaikum
10:03:00 AM
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